Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to organize life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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